If i would die today, i'd die happy.

Many things i'd let undone, many dreams and goals, friends and people i care about. Many unread mail spam, secrets never told, pictures never taken and stories never shared. I'd let a lot of phone calls unmade, many creative waste of bits and bytes never posted in this blog, many gadgets never bought, and clothes and shits.

Way too many places where i would've liked to be, i'd never see. And a lot of romantic stuff left pending, and sentimental stuff, and ethical challenges and personal business. Dreams of money and beers and kisses and vectorized landscapes.

Despite it all, i'd die happy, because i've gotten the golden piece of my puzzle back, just in time.

Recommended song: 'Oasis - Little James'

As required by my contract of employment, I hereby notify you my intention to leave ArtinSoft, being September 17, 2004 my last day of work as Web Engineer.

I have decided that it is time to move on and I have accepted a position elsewhere. The most remarkable reasons leading to this decision are already known by you; and I'm confident of having your support in this new quest of mine.

My contract of employment requires me to work for a further four (4) weeks from today, however, I wish to request being released on an earlier date because my new employer wants me to start working on September 20, 2004. I treasure all the things I learned in this department and you can be assured that I will do all I can to assist you in the smooth transfer of my responsibilities before leaving.

I will tender you a printed copy of this letter with my signature on it in a few moments.

Sincerely, Allan Rojas.

I talked about genetically enhanced human beings a few months ago suggesting that an interesting add-on to humans would be the ability to sleep 5 hours or less per day. The idea is not that bad, but sleeping is required because your brain gets tired of all the information you face everyday.

How about two different enhancements instead?. First, adrenaline emulation control.

You achieve the best of your physics and mind capabilities when your body releases the chemicals named epinephrine and norepinephrine, along with the hormone cortisol. Depending on the amount released you can do incredible things like jumping from one building to another, ala Matrix.

However, when your body runs out of these, fatigue jumps in and you're a complete waste. Imagine if you could just buy adrenaline enhancers the same way you buy orange juice! A quick injection and you get a full emulation of the worst scary moment ever; then voilá! adrenaline is released and you're ready to give 150% of performance.

Now is when you start talking about risks and possible mental disorders, but in my opinion, just put in the safety label something like: "don't take more than X adrenaline enhancers per day" and "customers who bought the adrenaline enhancer also bought hyper-relaxer pro" - which could probably be the counterpart making you run out of energies and forcing you to rest.

Tomorrow i'll continue with the second part of the Two Wishes.

I can remember... the feeling of tears coming up, tiers of sorrow and grief. And regret... Containing them hardly. Change the subject and smile?. No, keep talking. Keep saying the things you feel. This is when. She wants to hear you. Her eyes locked on you, saying a million things without moving her lips. Do the same, think carefully, talk slow, focus on her eyes, the words are coming by themselves...

... wake up.

I touched her heart... hell i surely did!!! Should not be posting here. You learn to like someone when you find out what makes her laugh, but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes her cry.

Recommended song: 'Michelle Branch - Everywhere'

True remorse is never just a regret over the consequences of what you made wrong; it is a regret over the motives you had in the first place, even if you can't understand them.

Before searching for forgiveness, analyze the motives of your actions before the consequences. What made you act that way? How many exits you had before deciding to lock yourself inside? Then learn that the very first mistake you made was opting to act that way - or sometimes, not to act at all against something.

Learn to never make the same mistakes again, understand that the situation forced you to take the wrong decisions and that consequences - as bad as they can be - made you wiser in the end.

Then try to heal the harm you caused with the best of efforts.

Recommended song: 'Blind Melon - No Rain'

You really forgive someone when you finally understand whatever reason motivated him to hurt you. But, understanding the reason is not justifying the damage, instead, it means having clear that self-limitations, blindness, ignorance and/or simple stress made that person act that way.

You must understand the fact that in that particular moment and situation, due to the very particular circumstances back then, there was no other choice for that person but to hurt you.

Certainly it was inevitable. Because if it weren't, that person wouldn't have caused any harm to you in the first place.